(((((((((((((((Tree))))))))))))))
you've also hit an important thing here. you KNOW you will be ok, you said. And that is right. You've done so much growth, that even with this totally crappy day in this totally beyond crappy month, you know you will be ok and even needing t is ok - even knowing t isn't available is ok. This is huge huge growth work.

I was thinking about you this week, being October, being how things are going just for myself I could sense that this was a trying time and that you are out there, growing, and getting by, and if you can, i can. I do hope you can get some rest this weekend, and that if you've not heard from him yet, you will soon as tomorrow is Monday. I even heard from mine this morning, so miracles do happen.

Thinking about you Brain Twin, and knowing KNOWING that you will get through this, and sitting with you to help hold some of that pain for you if you want to hand some off.
hugs, kiya