omg i am!

i cut two weeks ago for the first time in 8 months, i dont take my meds,i have been hallucinating (hearing thiings sometimes),my moods have been ALL OVER LIKE YOU COULDNT BELIEVE (Angry, Sad, Happy,Confused), i have been feeling like a different person, my ADD is getting WORSE and the only thing works is Strattera and my liver levels were high on that,i want to throw up on purpose AGAIN,i literally want to beat myself up, racing thoughts,anxiety is high,im anxious, and i am having paranoia AGAIN... AND hospitalizations do NOT work for me...what the hell do i do!?!??!!?!?!?!

deb

i forgot that i cant sleep and that like 2 times i have been having nightmares...yeahhhh