At certain points of my earlier posts I was actually being sarcastic. And I also attempted to deflect futher criticism in the last post, which evidently didn`t help. The bottom line is we all get frustrated when times are hard. And the fact that I`ve had a negative male in my life from day 1: as a child growing up to adulthood in relationships. I`ve made the choices on how I see the world and particularly how every man has treated me. So the rose colored glasses don`t work for me. Maybe all of you have had great relationships with men and I hope its true. But not everyone has, so women like me don`t always have a fluffy, nice approach. Sometime we get frustrated and even act petty for not being able to just have a peaceful, boring, stable life with a man. I don`t want all the negative crap to be my lot in life so Im taking little steps to change. Changing is not a pretty process to look at or be in the midst of. Making the big dumb mistakes is the only way some people can make progress. It takes work to become graceful at handling problems. Th