Hey Sannah,
I hardly ever, actually I don't think I added any friends on this site yet. but, I'm getting a good vibe from you and I appreciate the concern and comment. I'll have to check out some of your posts soon and send some encouraging comments and love your way too.

in the mean time,

well, she still hasn't emailed me back to confirm that I have it.
and i don't know, me getting sick, her getting sick, me having to take care of my mom because shes sick...these are all reasons that cancellations have occured.

I was caught completley off guard, thats why.... he grabbed me at my car and held my face, pushing it up to his the majority of the time...before he did it, I had this feeling...like a "dark cloud above me"... like something wasn't right but, I had no idea what was about to happen.. I feel bad because, there was a pause btwn us kissing but, as usual, he made mean comments, kinda hit a button in me, that made me feel bad about myself...so I let him keep going... thats why I still blame myself...but...it was not my choice to begin at all.

So, yeah i feel wrong for being angry with him but I guess U shouldn't.