Do you ever wonder if your "stuff" is too much?

My T has wiped tears from his eyes in several sessions. The first time, I read a letter I had written to the little girl inside of me. He was clearly moved and it felt good to feel so supported.

A few weeks ago, we played a song which reminds me of Former T. It's a song about a girl who wants someone (God) to look inside her heart and be amazed. Someone to say... Who she is, is enough. She is worthy. She is loved. I told T that for a long time I thought therapy with Former T was this...I felt accepted,worthy,loved. Of course,his decision to terminate created a situation where I no longer felt those feelings. T wiped his eyes several times as he listened to the song.

Last week, something very painful happened. Again, involving Former T. (He no longer lives here, he still works here.) A couple of other events occurred around the same time. In my session, I said " On the outside I appear fine. On the inside, I am a mess". I cried...and cried...and cried.

T cried, too. Clearly, it was,as if, he felt my pain.

Is there ever a time when it becomes too much for T? When I become too much for T? I am scared.