I am not sure if I am giving you the right advice, but you know because you are living it. You have to talk to him about the way you feel. If you can't say it write it. Something. I know that you do some pretty messed up stuff when you are drunk. That is actually understandable what happend as long as he doesn't do it again. But, seeing as he told you, he trusts you and he wants you to trust him. Don't feel bad that you are a little paranoid. It will take you time to trust him again. It is like a kid who gets some freedom from their parents and abuses that power. It will take the parents awhile to trust the kid again. But eventually they will trust him and give him the chance again. Talk with him. He is open to listenning just as you were open to listening to him. The reason this is all getting worse is because you are holding it in and letting it eat you alive to the point of paranoya and depression.

People know a little about everything and alot about nothing.