Luce, thank you very very much for being so honest. I agree with you that nothing can compare to the T-relationship except the mother/infant bond. All of my parts want to be there with my T even though they don't always want to admit that. I'm sorry that you don't have that with a T now. I hope you are able to visualize a former T's caring and safety even if you don't have the reality.

sunrise, I also think you can have close relationships outside of therapy but you are correct: they're reciprocal. That's the way they should be, and we all need those kinds of relationships. It doesn't take away the yearning, at last for me, of the one-sided caring I get from therapy.

Thank you for your wishes. I have to work on my IRL relationships a lot more. I hope you find some close IRL relationships too.