Oh wow, I hate sessions where I'm too overwhelmed to talk.

I don't think it's a waste, though (even though it SO feels like it at the time). I think on some deeper lever, some part of me needs to just experience being with T, and being safe, before I can say anything. So, after a long break, or when I'm overwhelmed, there tends to be a LOT of silence. The words are in my head, but I can't say them.

By the next session, I can usually force myself to say SOMETHING. Maybe because I feel safer, or maybe because I don't want to go home again and regret not being able to talk....or maybe both.

Be gentle with you. Therapy is hard.