I have been there too. I felt like I was the only person that doesn't know what to say. I felt like it was a waste of time too. I felt like I was dissapointing my T somehow. I don't like T it is hard and I know it is good for me but I don't want to do the work. I haven't seen my T since the summer began and I have an appointment coming up which I look forward to and dread all at the same time. I wish I knew what to say to help but I don't I just want you to know I understand what you are saying. I hope it gets better for you!