(((((VL)))))
I'm so sorry for your loss. This is a very difficult time I'm sure. I think your confusion right now about your feelings is absolutely normal. It's part of the whole reaction. Confusion about how to feel, what to say to others that don't know yet, about why it happened to you... the other feelings will come to, when you're ready; anger, grief, loss.

I too, suffered the death of my first baby. It's hard to never get to know that person you thought you would one day meet. I still carry his memory with me. His gift was helping me to know how others who go through this feel. When i was able to start talking about it, I was surprised to find how many others understood or had been through something similar. It was a very healing experience.

My heart goes out to you and your family. Be kind to yourself. Take it easy. Give yourself as much time as you're able to just be.

TC, Quay