austin-t told me today that i'm "wilful" and stubbornly avoiding issues and "caught up in victimhood". i hate him so much.

i want pdoc and i want a real hug and i want someone to tell austin-t that i've NEVER been a victim, because i always always always looked after myself and i'm still looking after myself and that being accused of somehow wallowing in victimhood is so painful and misguided that i wonder if he knows me at all.