Hello, and thank you for your replys and comments to my post.Thank you for your prayers and I ask that you please keep me in your prayers in the future. I lost my son July 16 this year, he would have ben 3 years old on Aug. 23. His name was Angel, I have put my link to his pictures on my profile, so I can share his beautiful perfect smile with everyone. Well, I have been having problems getting over his passing. I always thought that if I ever lost him, then I couldnt live with my self, but the problem is, I cant even grieve. I am thinking that maybe part of the reason for that, is because I was not with him at the time he passed. They had to take him to the hospital in an ambulance, and they wouldnt let me go with them. I had to hear from someone else about my sons death. I believe that maybe I could ...um, well greive more, I just dunno. Anyway, I am rambling here, I just wanted to share some of my feelings, and hope to get some insight and advice, please. And, um, well, I have not been able to get professional help, for one, I am not in the financial ability to get help, and two, I dont know exactly how to get help. Thank you for reading this, and please, if you can, help me understand what I am feeling, or why I am not feeling anything. Sherry