This is really bothering me.......

For the last 3 weeks or so I have had the following series of events over and over.

I feel really low, desp want to harm self or sui, have to work really hard to keep safe.

Then abruptly I am OK.

Eg yesterday I felt soooo bad, felt really worried for my safety, I took my boy to school and then went back to bed until 2pm cos I felt really unsafe, over powering voice in my head saying "do it". I got up, still felt dodgy so went to my neighbours house until pick up time for my son, just to keep safe.

Today I woke up, got up, been fine all day, no such thoughts, been quite productive.

My dx is depression.

What the hell is going on?

Can anyone suggest why this is happening?

It is really bothering me and confusing me.