I have been in a very dark place the last few days.

I know hub must have noticed, he said to a neighbour he was worried about me but he has continued to be the same heartless ***** he always is, expecting me to do everything as normal. He hasnt asked what's up or behaved any more nicely or considerate etc

Last night we sat in silence all eve - I felt like I had done something wrong but no idea what it was........

So I go shopping today and you know what I did? I bought him some gifts - little things like a nice sandwich for his lunch and some choccies I know he likes.

I said to him it was because he seemed a bit low just recently......he was really pleased.......

But I am a fool cos of course I was really overcompensating...........I am the one struggling BIG TIME, I would love a little gift from anyone but esp him, I want to be made to feel better...................

Why do I do this?

Apart from cos I am a fool..................