I think it may well be beneficial to give your T a call. There is a lot playing on your mind, and a good heart to heart chat is probably what you need.
And no, you haven't wasted 20 years - I'm sure there's lots you've learnt and you will definitely have grown
(((HUGS)))
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"I'd rather attempt to do something great and fail than to attempt to do nothing and succeed. Robert H. Schuller"
Current dx: Bipolar Disorder Unspecified
Current Meds: Epitec (Lamotrigine) 300mg, Solian 50mg, Seroquel 25mg PRN, Metformin 500mg, Klonopin prn
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