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phoenix7 · Oct 19, 2010, 10:24 AM

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Originally Posted by Oceanwave

Don't forget that Ts sometimes play the devil's advocate. I suspect deli that's what yours is doing right now, and you'd have to understand why. Discussing this with him will surely help.

My old T (bless his little cotton socks

) used to things to me to make me think abuot things - things i didnt want to hear - and he once said i was being wilful in not moving forward - i put my mask on and did the rest of the session as if nothing was wrong - but i know he noticed the withdrawl cos the next session he asked about why i had distanced myself from him

i told him he had hurt me by saying that i didnt want to get better and that it made me sound like a spoilt child (wilful) that wouldnt move cos somthing upset her and he said well........
you see in a way i was - i didnt know it - but inside i wanted to stay wiht what i knew - my abuse had taught me this was the safest way to be and there was no way my inner self was giving that up wihtout a fight

so it wasnt that i was saying nope dont want to get better - inside i was saying nope not takingthe chance that things may be wrose when im safe here..... sighs ..does that make any sense?

when he fully explained his comment i went away and thought about it and agreed he could be right ... jjust could be mind you

(dont tel him i said that cos he was always right lol - wherever you may be T bless yuo for putting up wiht me

)

the only way out is through - i cant remember who said that - but its true jmo - and the only way out of this is to talk to austin T about it and how it made you feel adn see what he says - i hope you discuss it with him - i knwo hes helped you a lot

big hugs