OK DO I NEED TO SAY I NEED SUPPORT ?????? sigh. sorry. I'm trying to cope NO I AM coping as best I can. MIAMI needed the win by the Miami Hurricanes last night... yet some here would deny me any bright cloud in the SKY. We got our win, but thanks to a few members here, I'm having trouble enjoying it, because my enjoyment of the game was trouncing their feelings of losing or something? I haven't been on here whining. I will. Is that what I'm supposed to do, to receive their support? OK

Some of the plants I lost had been from my dad's nursery. Did I whine about losing them to the hurricane? They are gone. So is he.
I lost everything to Hurricane Andrew already... victimization by mother nature.. watching it happen to others retraumatizes me. I don't even recall what I went through with Wilma... but I have 3 new wrinkles in my brow from it. Have I whined about that? (they are very distinctive too... as they angle in from the upper "corners' of my face down towards my nose. What kind of fear causes that?

I can't even think about the storm. I tried to enjoy a simple football game... and got blasted for that. It's tough to live when your efforts are put down because others are eager to lash out and throw eggs at you.

Yeah, now I'm whining. I've tried to go to the support chat room for support... and ppl left before I really said anything. I've followed them to another room, where they went to AND? they left again. I haven't hardly shared anything of my feelings on this.. except this thread... and thats more of "facts" of stuff going on. I 've gone back to the chat room and end up giving support to others.. who have no idea of my own struggles right now. That isnt their "fault" but it doesn't help me.

I appreciate those of you who have given me support.. and care and prayers. You know who you are and you are gems to me. Thanks. I'm sorry if this seems as though I am acting out. ... my God, I could have died .... again.... or worse... I could have been hurt more.