I really agree with what Lilleth says here. For me it's about being afraid to trust the good feelings. When I'm feeling better I have so much more to lose. Because slipping back into depression and anxiety after a period of stability hurts a lot more than just staying depressed. It's so much further to fall.......So when I do feel better, I find myself worrying about when the good feelings are going to end. And then it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.

I'm trying to accept the fact that everything changes all the time, especially my moods, and that nothing is permanent. This is helping me to enjoy the times when I do feel better, instead of constantly worrying about when the good feelings are going to end. In the same way, when I'm depressed and anxious, I'm trying to keep reminding myself that I will feel better again.

I'm trying to stop the "black and white" thinking and also to spend more time in the moment. It's a work in progress!!!

Wishing you all the best!