I'm really scared of him. I can't trust him. Everytime I try and talk he talks right over me. If I don't answer his question right away, he starts assuming what my answer is going to be. It's like he is in such a hurry to get and answer and move on. Therapy is not supposed to work like that.

He wanted to know my feelings with my old T and I could feel the tears starting in my eyes. I can't tell him my REAL feeling of old T, he will see that as very bad and wrong, and I don't want him to say again that it's a good thing that I left my old T.

My old T means the world to me and him saying that it's good that I left him, hurts, it hurts very deep and he doesn't get that. I don't know. I feel so lost in this wanting/finding a new T. I am so worked up that I don't want to talk to any one. I just want to crawl down in my hole and die and be left alone by all the professionals. I'm working on canceling all my appointments with any and all doctor's I have. None of them care and even the one that maybe does, well, I shouldn't be seeing him either. I really don't know what's true, right, wrong, ......