When i am manic my thoughts are, "well being bipolar/depressed makes me so much better cause i'm a deep thinker, only clever people suffer with true depressed, blah blah, i'm so amazing that even my illness is amazing."
When i am depress, "I would shoot myself if i knew for a fact this would never go away, but at least its one thing i am sure about, i'll never be loved, at least the illness wont leave me," type thoughts.
WHen i am feel norma/happy/relaxed, "How long will this last, how boring is this, what is there to my life, how mundane.... when it comes back i will want to kill myself.... if it doesnt, then whats the point in living like this forever."
its so nice to actually hear/see other people say, yes i relate to this.
Not being funny, but people with any sort of mental health issue, have a habit of over thinking things, and some things i just wont think of, and its nice to see people sum up the things i can never put into words.
I know i dont make sense, i'm sorry.