(((ivyblessed)))

one of the most messed up things about suicide is that the idea in ones head can damn near blind yourself to everyone else and their concerns and how they may feel...whether its over a long period of time, or just a moment of "i want this to STOP NOW" (or a combination thereof). I still feel so guilty (and selfish and stupid...) after my attempts because of what i put my family through. I still cannot imagine what you as a parent - and all others go through - to have kids like us....

im sorry. You and yours are in my prayers too...