New things ARE hard.

maybe you can sort of turn your back on it and let it sneak up on you. If it hangs around in the corners of the room for a while maybe you will get used to its presence a little. Doesn't have to be all at once.

and oh if you don't mind my mentioning it, you are feeling this and the calendar still says October, so maybe that is losing some of its power, what a wonderful thing that would be !!! (((((((((((( tree ))))))))))))