Just this past month I stayed for 2 weeks in the Mental Health Unit of our local hospital. I live in a very rural area. I know most places are not, how shall I put it, peaches and cream, but I feel I was more traumatized than helped during my stay. Has anyone else ever felt like this? We had daily group 'therapy' that ranged from very well managed to "Let's just listen to some country music on tv." It took me almost a week to even get adjusted to being in there, then the next week was spent in fear of being sent home before I was ready (my problem, not their fault). I only got to go outside one time for 15 minutes during the entire stay. They would bribe us with outside time to get us to go to group and such, but they were always conviently busy or understaffed when it was actually a time we could go outside. (And of course I understand all the problems that could arise: runaways, etc. They seem to have a high standard of who gets to go outside or not, etc.) No one else got to go out either, and I KNOW a few of us were qualified to get to go, I saw it on one of the counselors charts. Anyway, getting sidetracked. Now that I am home, I have been having self distructing behavior to my few friendships, desiring to even be back in the hospital, a different one, where I can do an actual program, like a detox or something in comparison, that has intense therapy. Does such a place exist? I plan on talking about it at my next therapy session, but I have some other health issues that are keeping me from therapy for at least 2 weeks. Any ideas, comments? I know this has been all over the place, sorry. Very nervous and scatterbrained this evening.