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I was told in past relationships something is wrong with me I need to seek some type of professional help. I was also told depression is apart of life. However, this has been occurring since I was little, I mean Elementary little. I could give you a book, but I'll just sum it up. I could be in the best on mood and within a split second I find myself seating their quite not knowing what’s wrong with me. from that point I find myself either crying, lashing out at an individual (most of time for no reason), I don’t enjoy doing things I loved the most anymore, I have sleepless nights (everynight); my mind show and tell me things that people say do not exist. I have issues with letting go, instead I dwell on it wondering, trying to figure out why has it happen.
Like I said I have had constant mood changes since I was little, once I reached my adult years I starting seeing that this was starting to take over my everyday life. In August 09 I had an episode which landing me in the hospital, I was then told by a doctor I may be bipolar. I have lost my fiancé over years because of this, and the person I'm with now tells me that I scare them. I went to a family member long ago telling them I think I have a mood disorder, they stated "you do you were just never taken to see someone about it". Now I am at the point where someone is bound to get hurt really bad because of my thoughts, feelings,and emotions.
So my question to you do you think it’s too late for me?
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