Sherry, I think you are still in shock, that's why you don't feel like you are grieving... but you are... in your own way. When I lost someone very dear to me, I didn't think that I grieved either. I couldn't cry. My mother once told me that sometimes pain can be so deep and so powerful that it goes beyond tears.

Hang in there. Grief is a long process. Have you tried looking for websites that deal with death and grief? I'm sure you would find a lot of help and answers there.

In the meantime, keep posting, ok?