Your county health department should have mental health services and if you feel you or someone you know is in immediate danger due to your mental state you can be seen tonight at a hospital within your county. You can google it up. If you do not have the funds to pay for the services you do not have to pay for emergency treatment. I am not that familiar with exactly how it works but I did call for my sister one time and I googled up mental health services then put in her county and state and the information came up. They told me if she might hurt herself or someone else they would see her immediately at the hospital and she would not have to pay anything. Good luck I hope this helps. You asked if it is too late and I am living proof that as long as there is a breath in you it is not too late. At one time in my life I scared people too. Now with proper medication,time and therapy I am not that person anymore.