im not sure what to do, i have withdrawn again, i missed my appointments (have rescheduled one for friday with a counsellor)..i just cant decide on my next moves,,i feel very lonely and horrible,,i cant talk about anything to anyone...i know i dont want to live my life looking out at the world,i want to live in it,i cant,,,the anxiety is so high about everything...i have been enrolled in a 6 week (1x per week) course on anxiety beginning on oct.28 but i dont even know if i can muster up the nerve to go and keep going...and thursday mornings would be hard for me to find a babysitter,,an easy reason to not go,,but if i try hard enough im sure someone i trust(very few) would be able to watch the baby for an hour or two..everything seems so hard..its like im constantly waiting for the right time..the right time for what,i dont even know...i just withdraw into my own little hole