Thanks for the support, kikki. Although I have to admit, as bad as I was mentally at the time of my voluntary admission at the hospital, it had nothing to do with pride at that point. I was desperate. My therapist gave me a few options, and I did choose the hospital (before they would have chosen it for me, no doubt!) it was AFTER that I dealt / am dealing with the pride thing. Now that the desperation issue is over, I have found it a little hard to say "So what?" to any negative thoughts I may have about being in the mental health unit.

I also suffer from OCD. Severe Depression, General Anxiety Disorder, PD-NOS, PTSD and Co-dependancy issues. I can be pretty much all over the place at times. Right now I also have just been diagnosed with Level 4 Endometriosis and had some polyps removed from my uterus ( I didn't even know you could have them there.) and have had 2 lumps discovered, all from one yearly pap appointment. That has thrown a twist in my recovery for the moment. I have already had a D & C and hysterescopy laparoscopy preformed last monday, so getting that ball rolling now. The big kicker is I am getting ready to start a 3 month deal that temporarily throws you into menopause so the estragen is cut off and the rest of the endometriosis that is left on my bowels, etc, will die out and not (hopefully) end up in some bowel removal or a hysterectomy at this time. The biggest side effects are of course none other than extreme mental distress (that and hot flashes) and it can get so bad they have to give you a huge dose of estrogen to make the mental stuff 'go away' which totally defeats the purpose of the whole shot thing to begin with. My doctor has discussed the pros and cons of all this with me, and since SOMETHING has to be done SOON, I perhaps will very well get a menopause inducing shot at 1:45 tomorrow. (I am still praying about it and will not make up my mind until I get some further questions answered that I have thought of since my last visit.)

Can you tell I am one big sidetracked nervous wreck right now? Has this post even made sense? lol This is all happening kind of fast, and little ocd me likes a game plan, like a year in advance. Well, didn't get that this time, and that has to be okay, and I will have to go from here!