There are times when i wonder why i bother with therapy at all too. But i DO need help with all that i want to do, be, and progress towards. I tried doing/being by myself towards perfection...until I SCREWEDUP! & i just couldnt anymore & tried to kill myself. Therapy is part of my reality now alongside work, school, volunteering, journaling, trying/reflecting on experiences, struggling with shame & rage over child abuse&family dysfunction, reading, and prayer. On good days when im functional. On other days...