well, i'm right that it is a little little girl...just don't know HOW little she is yet...I keep getting the feeling that I will be called in the middle of the night and will have to go off and get her...I carry my phone around the house with me...like if I didn't I would miss the call and be denied a little one right now in my house...

I am getting a crib on Saturday, and a playpen tomorrow evening and going to St Vincent DePaul shop to get some baby things...all you can get into a plastic bag for $3. Not bad, since I need everything!!! And then I will need other sizes too...just to have on hand...but I am thinking I should go and put the base to the car seat in the car to make sure it is in before the time arrives and then I would be late...

I am scared, nervous, excited, anxious, worried, ecstatic, and simply frazzled...LOL...seems to be the words of the hour right now...my worker told me to be prepared...and I am doing the best I know how to keep things to a dull roar...

sigh...what an experience...getting ready for a wee one who is going to wow us right from the beginning...I don't know how old she will be...somewhere between an infant and 7, but more probably less than 5 years old...maybe old enough for a toddler bed...but I don't think so...I still get the sense it will be the middle of the night to come and get the child...there will be no greater bliss than to have a child if only for a little while...

wow...am i ever on call!!!

and when I get her I will hold her tight and let her know she is safe...very strange to be in a holding pattern right now...but it may happen at any second now...so off to bed I go...not knowing when I will be awakened...maybe tonight...maybe tomorrow night...but I am going to get the car seat ready...

thanks for checking in everyone...and for your encouragement!!!

Jewels