Hello Who, shame on those in your past who didn't believe or help you. How wonderful that this person believed you and responded appropriately. It is quite normal, however, for you to have reacted the way that you did. Denial feels much better after all of this time. Acceptance IS painful. This is one of the major roadblocks in therapy for many people. It is easier in the short run to deny but in the long run and for healing and getting better acceptance is the way to go.

Do you have a therapist?

Memories do not dissapate. These events need to be processed in therapy and your feelings about them need to come out in therapy and then you will be able to let them go.

Please continue to keep us posted.