I have GAD, but idk...I DO often do this to punish myself with a ongoing negative internal script in my head. I guess i ask because i wonder: is this just another form of general self-sabotage that needs to stop, or is this also SI that i need to specifically treat?? I guess there is also this weird part of me that envies others that deal with struggles/emotions/events/triggers with an ACTUALl action - binge, purge, drink, run, f***, smoke, cut = escape somehow for release. I, ontheotherhand, am just on this neverending cycle of self-hatred, hopelessnes, and worthlessness...Thanx for your feedback...