I am scared of the side effect... I am able to manage most of the time... I don't want to lose it, lose myself. I know it is an episode and it will past. It's just it seems too damn long for me now.

I've been researching some alternative therapists in my town... but that is bit too expensive for me at the moment. I don't really have any income and there is not much chance of me getting a job with my school schedule. So I am stuck.

I moved from the Prague Castle to the Brno Castle. I don't like the town all that much... but I gotta get my degree, so I have to live here for two years at least.

sorry for the rambling. I should be happy, I really really should.