@Purplechick -Not recently. I just don't want to get back on medication, I hated how it made me feel, and I guess I just told myself I could find better ways of dealing with this stuff, but I'm having difficulty finding it. At first it seemed finding something I'm passionate about would help me, but it's hard to do what I'm passionate about because I have to worry about school because I'm incredibly behind..

@madisgram - I've always been hard on myself. I just never feel like I'm good enough. I never thought I'd be good enough for parents because they put such high expectations on me because of how my sister used to be. I guess that might be part of it. My family is very high maintenance, they're the kind of people that look down on people for not looking perfect or being perfect. Now I just look at myself and see this person who will never be good enough.
I have a couple trusted friends, but most of them are far away now, I only talk to them every once in awhile. It sucks. I have a few in the city, but even than, I still have a bit of paranoia whether or not I should trust them. Even when I talk to my friends, they tell me what I want to hear, but even after that I don't see what's so great. I don't know, I have those days where I look in the mirror and feel fantastic, but it doesn't happen often.