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BamaSurvivor said:
if something that tramatic happened to me, I think I'd take a look around me and realize I need to quit for good.

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Bama, something that traumatic HAS ALREADY happened to you. Why would it take being "too late" to quit? Wouldn't you rather make the push to quit BEFORE it's too late?

I really, really REALLY hope you can find the strength to pull yourself together to get treatment. I think it's worth putting yourself in debt over -- you're not going to be able to "save up" for treatment at the rate you're going. The sooner you get treatment, the sooner your life will be back on track.