(((Muser)))

True trust has to be given not earnt. You have given it back and that's a brave step to take. Deep down I think you know he wont hurt you like that again.
I think that a "link" is broken when the trust is broken... you end up for ever wondering, checking and watching.
I have no idea how to get past this LOL but I am a true believer of TALKING (which you do know ). Get everything out of your head and hopefully the times where you feel this way will be less frequent.
It takes time to heal.. time for the ego to fix itself, time for the self confidence to come back xxx

Wishing you all the joy and happiness in the world!

Bel