I hope you don't give in to that feeling. Maybe I can give you my hate of throwing up. I get nausea & then I just won't eat because I hate to throw up so much. Unfortunately the not eating anorexia is a problem of it's own.

I had an experience one time that has made throwing up almost impossible. I got the flu while on a long weekend vacation. I was so sick & throwing up that I burst all the blood vessels in the whites of my eyes & my face.....causing the whites of my eyes to become completely red & my face had red pin point spots all over it. I do anything possible to avoid that experience again.

Take care of yourself & it is good for you to post rather than to do that to yourself.

Debbie