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Originally Posted by shezbut
You are welcome 
It's hard to tell if the sentence written after the thanks is serious or a joke. I don't want to make assumptions and get my response back wrong. 
I have a heck of a time allowing myself to shed tears. I HATE it. So, I have to verbally remind myself (often) that it is a healthy thing to do, to relieve the stress. I have a much easier time punching pillows and shouting, but that isn't real easy for me to begin either.
I am much quicker to let out the energy physically, with exercise. I go for 7-mile walks on bike paths...in nature. Nature brings me peacefulness. It takes a few miles of trees, birds chirping, leaves falling, and squirrels chattering to just remind myself that the Earth is so much bigger than I. The Earth has beauty, some continuity with elements and life. My problems are momentary....the Earth will keep rotating...life will go on.
That is how I get through the dark days. Not trivializing myself. It isn't that at all. Instead, focusing on life exisiting for all sorts of creatures. All sorts of habitats, dealing with their own stress. And it goes on. It will continue to go on. Make sense??
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I appericate the time you take to offer up suggestions and I do understand. I am not as able to get out right now as I have been in the pastl. A few physical problems. I do enjoy the outdoors and the animal life that's in it. I give thanks everytime the wild turkeys come through the yard or I see the deer or red fox in the neighbors yard up the street. I just find it so hard to hold that good focus for more than a little while. I wasn't joking about the crying and I worry that someone might try and put me in a padded room. I could use the rest but might just give up the fight and stay and that would not be fair to my family. I'm glad I found this site. It is good to see how we all try to help each other. I think that's important and who better to understand than someone who has or is going throught the same thing. This is a bad thing to say but it also helps to see that there is always someone how is going through worse than I am. I can't think of works to express how much it means to be accepted.