I envy all of you who are able to send your Ts emails. My T does not allow emails. And she wont push me to talk about anything. She says that it is up to me to decide what we talk about. It was interesting though, the other session when I had called her between sessions with a worry, she did bring it up at the beginning of session. I just don't think I could even leave this on her voice mail. It is too scary. It makes me just want to hide.