Lyrical Chula,

I'm so very sorry that you lost your close friend this way! It sounds like you have a lot of grief that you're trying to avoid by staying busy. You mentioned that you have a therapist. Please let her know how you're suffering emotionally and ask her to help you deal with these very difficult feelings. Most likely, trying to push away the sadness won't really work. Your feelings of sadness and loss are valid and real. She was a good friend. Of course you miss her terribly. Please allow your t to help you navigate through this very difficult time. Also, know that people here at PC care about you and are here to support you too.