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Oct 21, 2010, 11:02 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2009
Location: getting use to my own skin again
Posts: 1,797
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  I fiinely got an appointment for my psych and physcal evaluations for social sercurity. After a year and ahalf of not being able to work because of all truama, we are scared what if we do or say something wrong and make them say no. we have so much riding on this.
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no matter how short or uneventful our time is outside when we come back those within go in to hiding mode until we at least feel like no one was hurt while we were outside.
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want to try to get someone to go with us so we feel safe but don't know if they will let someone be with us during the interveiw. Life sucks when you have become afriad of your own shadow yet have to fack at times that your not just to keep the parainas away from you. so many times we took the path of less abuse now though we only have a small path to take with out any side allies.
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Just scared, what if we get nothing how are we to do anything when we be scared to be around to many people?
we just wish that we could find a place to clime into and no be scared no more that when we feel safe someone will try to take it away. 
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson .gif "Boy Angel")
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