Sorry for ranting. Yesterday was a bad day. I dont make sence. That parent is not mentally ill, but physically = hense the hospital involvement. The beatings were passed down w/grandparent the same way (and more) to the parent. I work with children now and KNOW its wrong just to call/think/say that a child is bad. But i dont make sence. And shouldnt be close to ANYONE - children, youths, peers, adults, elders - to expose them to my sh**. I am bad. I am tired too. My next appointment w/pdoc is tommorrow. Yesterday was bad with too many triggers culminating and crashing at me, and me responding with blowing up at the house and cussing myself out HARD. I dont know how to approach or start today now after all of yesterday and appointments tommorrow. Sorry for ranting. And not being thankful for feedback. And being so bad and wrong.