And the spiral begins.

I don't know if it's a spiral exactly. I just know I didn't do what I needed to do today in therapy.

It's been REALLY LOUD in my head. T knows that. I'm losing time and feel about half-present all the time. T knows that too.

I need to ask for what I need, and I couldn't figure out how. I need a way out. I know I need to talk. Today sucked. I'm stuck with everything and it hurts and it's confusing and it's making me miss out on the life that's going on around me

I want a do-over. BIG time. I can't stand this drifty place I'm in.