Oooooh I know the "concerned face" anxiety! I HATE THE CONCERNED FACE! Opening your heart.. or seeing someone else open their heart.. is so hard, takes so much trust, is so uncomfortable... Especially when the last time you were open and honest, even with a T, you got "punished" with a threat of termination if you didn't do something your T said! No wonder this is frightening to you.

I DON'T think this is a stupid question at all. I think considering what you've been through it makes sense that this is difficult.

With this stuff, it's always good to start where you are. "I can't open up to you because I'm scared of the consequences" is, I think, a good place.