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Originally Posted by Sannah
Can you start to work with your therapist on this list of things that aren't working? This is how I got better through therapy. Each week I would share with my therapist the issues that weren't working for me at that time. I learned what to do about them and they got better and I kept working on my list and guess what? This is how I got better.
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But that's the thing: no one will listen to me anyway.
If I've learned anything from life, it is that my instincts, ideas, memories, values, and opinions are always wrong. When I say, "doctor, this isn't working" I will be given a very convincing argument that everything WILL work if only I'd let it. When I tell my therapist, "you know, I don't think this method is working" they will proceed tell me that it WOULD work if only I'd be more proactive. So, clearly, I'm a hindrance to my own improvement. If only I wasn't myself, I'd stop being such a basket case and actually
improve.
It seems like the only thing people will believe are the disfigured scars and self mutilation... and that only serves to show just how crazy and unbelievable I really am...
I'm sorry, I'm only prattling on and consuming the last dregs of self-pity. Thank you all, though, for your kind words...