(((CrazyChick80))) Just wanted to tell you how brave you were to admit yourself to the hospital. I just did the same thing approx. 2 weeks ago. Other than being monitored for safety there was not much of a program at the hospital I stayed in. It was my first time, and I slept most of the time. I too was terrified they would release me too soon. As far as going outside, you had to be a smoker to do that. I agree with you, I wish there were facilities with programs for people like us were we could stay, be kept safe, receive our meds and therapy, individual and group.