Masochism, maybe. But no, right now, I don't think a label is what matters.

There is rough play, there is very rough play, but a broken rib is just clumpsy. The level of intensity you seek can be reached without harming the body.

But putting that aside for now, there are some questions I would ask myself if I were you.

Why do I crave it?

What does it give me?

What do I feel like immediately after?