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Originally Posted by Rohag
Hello & Welcome, Bluesummers!
Planning on visiting the States, attending an anime convention and participating in cosplay, yes? That really sounds exciting! Depression can take the life out of adventures, but I truly hope your spirit allows you to take in all those wonderful events offer.
Speculation: From your descriptions -- losing and gaining weight, apathy toward hygiene, etc. -- it does sound as if you may have been struggling with depression for some time, and the breakup has simply intensified what was already there. Is it possible to get a full health check-up where you can also talk about how you are feeling?
As for relationships, I'm not the one to ask. My observation is good things tend to appear when you're not looking for them.
Be at home here, Bluesummers.
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Hello, thank you for coming to my thread, and offering up some help. I must admit, when I originally planned it all. It sounded just great. I was pretty happy, and looking forward to it. Its just, with the break up, and my downward spiral since, I suppose its lost its edge. I hope if nothing else, a mutual friend of ours, whos also going to the con, will prehaps distract me from the pain, and prehaps introduce me to new people, maybe I can feel better about myself at the convention. Its wishful thinking prehaps, but, what can ya do besides hope for the best on it?
Anyway, in regards to your speculation, it would be fair to say, I've been dealing with at least some of these issues for years, and the only time they seem to really improve is when I'm with someone I really enjoy being with. This usually falls under them being female, single and attractive to me, if I'm honest, lol. I suppose, it comes back to romance being able to make me feel alive and kicking.
*sigh* And losing that, as always, brings me crashing into misery. I think this one really troubles me, because, I was as good a boyfriend as I thought I could possibly be, and a good person. Even if she might be rough with me sometimes in terms of treatment, I'd still turn around and say I loved her, and that she was a good girlfriend. Even after the break up, naturally we've had some fights, but really, I've been really good about things, and patient in getting answers. Given her time and space too. And yet, for all that quality, its like I'm no better off than when I used to be a poorer human being. It hurts, theres, just no justice that can make it better I suppose. Sorry, I'm rambling probably, but its likely good I get these thoughts written out.
Sorry about that, but as to whether I can see someone for a full health check up, I think it would be possible. I can get some help from a local support group, so I can have someone come to the doctors with me, and explain things a bit. So, I would say its possible, and I'm thinking on it since you said it. Theres about 4 days until I start my journey out there though, so it would likely have to be after I go there.