I can't even begin to truly express how tired of it I get. Seriously its a drain all day every day. I mean, things that are everyday for a most people, takes energy, and often, takes too much energy for me to want to do it.

I can't stand it. I want to be able take care of myself. I want to be able to sit there and have a conversation with someone, without thinking to myself, Can't be boring, I'm being boring, aah I can't think, ect.

I wanna feel good, not utter crap darnit.(Feels good to let that out) Your not alone by a long way.