i tend to use drugs mostly to help me feel in control of my moods, im bipolar and taking coke is a surefire way of giving me a little high even when i feel really depressed and works similarly when im manic, i mean obviously when im manic i dont need to get high but if i take some drug when i feel manic then iguess it makes me feel more like iv made me manic. i struggle with everything when i am in a depressed episode and i hate feeling useless and constantly fighting urges to cut just tire me out, whenever i get like that i reach for coke, well it started like that anyway, now i find myself looking for excuses for me to take it cos i dont wanna face the day without it.
i am glad you are both in recovery and hope both of you are doing well!! lee, i have considered na but i dont really know how to find a local meeting, would searching on the internet show me local meetings?

thankyou for all your help, Lol x